Friday 14 December 2012

A True Communist


                                     


           "Ramettan is a true communist". I have heard this statement n number of times since 
childhood and since I haven't seen this Ramettan, I have formed an image of a tall well built 
man with big moustache, who is the part and parcel of the lives of the natives. He was the 
answer to all their  problems, hardships and sufferings. Ramettan is somebody who exists in 
everyone's nostalgic childhood. There used to be lots of Ramettans before, not anymore.
 Ramettan is an endangered or rather I would say an extinct species of mankind.

          Ramettan used to be the soul of the party and its activities in that locality,ready to die
 for the welfare of the people. He helped out every other person he met and could be hardly
spotted at his own home. He never bothered to build up a fortune for himself,  but made sure
 that his family was not starving and that his children had good education . All that mattered
to him was the development that was happening through him. A voracious reader that he
was, started libraries by collecting funds from everywhere,insisted people to send their 
children to schools, found out means to educate poor children. There wasn't a life in that 
village that he left untouched. He was there for them, with neither any promises or fake 
smiles nor with an eye at the power he might end up with. He was there,just to help people.
             
         When I was too young, I used to think of seeing Ramettan as the Chief Minister or the 
Prime Minister.There were many instances in my life later on,when I actually thought why 
haven't I heard of this man. Then,as life went on, I neither found time to bother about a 
Ramettan or his political career.

        Now, many years later, as I walked into the shopping complex, saw my dad talking to 
the doorman. A skeleton of a  man,frail and bent with age , the wrinkles on his face disturbed
by a pleasant smile.When asked, I was told it was the same Ramettan, the true communist,
at the age of around seventy-five working on a 12 hour shift as the doorman  to feed his 
ailing wife who, in spite of her poor health, does domestic help at many houses. They had
three children, well, they still have, who totally abandoned them. They had become iritated 
with a father, who sticked on to his principles whatsoever. His three sons where pursuing 
heights,conquering the world while he stood here for 12 hours and then later does any work
 he could get so as to get the medicines for his wife. May be I was wrong . There might have
 been few lives that Ramettan failed to touch.

        In spite of all the hardships at this later phase of life, Ramettan was neither angry with the
world nor had any complaints. He was all smiles, never talked about his troubles, refused
to accept the money my dad offered. He was still the same old communist, a person who 
knew the true meaning of the word.

        As I was leaving,he opened the door for me and I could see the decades of labour in those 
burnt and blistered hands. And that day,I shook hands with a rare species on earth,
 A True Communist.



Sunday 9 September 2012

Love



For the world , she was a beautiful kite. One flamboyant skylark

free to flutter in the wind. Except, she was miserable and dejected,

detested  the wind-bound vitality. She always dreamt of the world,

beyond the 100 feet, aspired to touch the heavens and earnestly

longed for her liberation.

Thats when she met him and she was in love.

The unimpeded him. Neither tied to a thread nor dancing at the whims

of a stranger. He was free. He admired her charm and shared all the

wonders of the world she missed. She hid her envy but tied him with

her and together they flew.

Days passed and he wasn't happy anymore. But still, he never expressed

resentment, restrained his world to hers. Her love for him changed to

possession and she too was unhappy again. Gradually, he lost his

vigour and was torn apart. And then one day, he couldn't fly anymore

and perished.

She felt culpable and realised the truth of her life-

It was his freedom that she loved.







Sunday 12 August 2012

Malluzzz Only!!


(Manglish aayi poyathil khedikkunnu)
         
                
                                                                               
Annoru Saturday arunnu. Ennum kettiperukki veetil pona njan
aa  week poyilla. Veetil poyi poyi veettukaarkku pullu vila
aayathukondalla.Flatile aarum povathha ore oru week.Orupadu
plans undu.Padmanabhaswamy Kshetram,oru movie,angane angane..
Ambalathil saree uduthe keran padullu..Njangal 7 peril 5
perkkum saree undu including njan.Angane valya planner aya
njan plan cheythu.7 manikk iranganam.Ellarum veluppine enit
saree uduthu(uduppichu) ready ayi vannapo 8.(njan atrem polum
pretheekshichillarnnu).
Angane flatinnu irangi.Valuthayi HEERA infocity ennu ezhuthi
vechekkunathinte munpil ninnu photo edkkamenu etho oruthi
mozhinju.Verthe show off.Adutha facebook cover photo ayikkotte.
Neendangu ninnapolanu first floorile balconyil urakkapichode
ninna kore north indians aanpiller kannum thalli ninnu nokkunnu.
Ithanu njan nerathe enikkan parayunnathennnu oruthan mattavanod.
Atharunnu adyathe chammal.
Angane bus stopil ethi.Mothathil ella manushyarum nannayi scan
cheyyanundu.Aa potte,enthelm aavattu.Bhaagyathinu ambalathil
valya thirakkilarnnu.Nannayi thozhuthu(edayk oru ammachi
kalipparunnu).Pinne museum poyi.Athum nannayi.
Athu kazhinju oru Hotelil food adikkan keri.Food raidil pidich
etho oru hotel.Avuduthe avinja bhakshanamokke raid cheythu
kanummello ennu vicharichu.Penn budhiyee...
Angane avde keri irunnu order cheythu kazhichum kazhinjappo
aa satyam mansilakki.Kayyil kaashillaa.Pinne oralde kayyile
card kondu ellam set aaki.
Athinu sheshamanu shopping @ pothys.Avde keri chennapozhe
divayayod(nammude suhruthaane) oru ammachi vannu entho
thirakkunnu.Pettannanu ellarkkm athu manasilayee.
Set saree udthu kore ennam nerannu nikkunnu.Avaru vicharichu
sales gals anennu.
Scene aayi.
Pettannu vere ethelm floorilott povam ennu theeerumanichu.
liftinte aduthot poyi.Appozhatha kootathil maturity ithiri
kudthalanennu thettidharikkapetta jeethu(mattoru suhruth)
liftinte sidil kayyum madakki nikkunu.Ho aa nippu kandal ippo
Seemattile Beena Kannan edthondu povum avale.Atrem nalla
vinayathunaya aaya oru sales gal!
Enter next ammachi.
Jeethunod chodikaya "saree ethu floorila"
Njangal ellarum chirichu thakarthu.Jeethu sasi!!
Kootathil ettavum pottichiricha athirayude purakil aaro
thondunnu.Aareda athu...??
Enter 3rd ammachi...
"Mole ee kids wear evida"Ithavana jeethuvum chirichu.Avalk
samadanaayi.Ammachi chennu vene complaint cheythu kaanum.
Ivduthe sales galsinokke ithiri ahankaram kooduthalanennu.
Angane liftil keri salwar ulla sectionil ethi.
Appo nammude sales man chettanu mothathil oru pucham.
Nammal edkilla verthe udayippanennoru samshayam.
Kuttam parayan pattila.Ellarkkum deshyayi.Enikk prethyekichum.
Avdunnu onnu irangiya mathinnayi.
Enter next character
Oru guidum(Venus Williamsinu Salim Kumaril janicha oru item)
madammayum(kollallo videon)...
Thirinju nikkuvarunna ennod guide mozhinju--"onnu thiriyavo.
Madammaykku Kerala saree kananaaa"
Kali thulli nikkana ennodeee... orumatiri adjust cheythu
vechekkana saariyaa.Njan oru second onnu thirinju angerem
aa madammenem otta oru nottam nokki.
Athode avarkk randu perkkum matyaayi.
Angane exit pothysss..
NEXT
enter theatre.4 theatre orumich ulla oru sambavamaa.
 Nokki kollunna manushyar purathu(especially kurach
crowded cos f dark knight release..)
Dark knightinu kerandannu theerumanichu.Set sareem chutti
athinu keriyaa Christopher Nolan polum poruthuunu varillaa.
Apo ningal vicharikkm vere etra padamundu..
Thattathin marayathu,ustad hotel,spirit,etc etc,...ethokke
epozhe kandu bodhichu(njangal benchilaanallo..athayathu
paniyillaannu!!).
Njangal ethandu 1 hr neratheyaaa.Ticket apo kittillalo.
Kathirippu...
Veliyil odukkathe nottamayathu kondu divya paranju akathu
chilappo vishalamaaya car parking sowkaryam undavummennu.
Appo pinne ellam koodi akathot chennu keriyathum njetti
poyi.Verum thara maatram.Veendum sasi.Angane avde post
adichu nippayi.
Purakil ninnu ororutharum sketch aanu njangal ellarem.
Van scene!
4 films aanu ulle-dark knight,billa,bachelor party,eeecha.
Eechaykku keramennu theeerumanamaayiii.Attavum potta theatre
aane athu. Angane tharuneemanikal set udthu last nerannanagane
irunnu.
Apoo thaa varunnu..Officile pandathe TL (Team Lead).Njan kai
pokki "HI" okke veeshi.Pullim veeshi kai.Entaa santhoshm....
Angane aa potta movie thudangi.Arokkeyo nallathanennu paranju
ennu paranjathu njan aanallo ennorth njan dukhichu.Ella dishayil
ninnum enik tough looks kitty thudangi.Atrek muttu movie aane.
"Entha ningalk ithupole innovative aaya moviez ishtalla..??"
Nokkumbo aduthirunna athira urangunnu...
Avale kuthipokki.Angane aval matram santhoshikkandaaa.Jeevithathil
dukavum venamello.
Eechayil oru paattundu."Bindu bindu ,enne onnu nokku.." Eeecha
padunnatha athu. Kannu niranju poyi.Ee petta kashtapaadokke aa 
paattil alinju poyiiii. Eechakalodokke oru bahumanam thonni.Thripthiyaaayyyyi..
Pinne movieyil eecha naayikene kettukeyo,avark eecha kunjungal
undavukeyo matto aanu..aa..swapnam kandathaavum..
Angane avdunnu urakkam kazhinjirangi. Enit bus keri ingu ponnu..
                                     *shubham*
Ennu parayan varatte,there s an anticlimax...:0
Monday uchaykk sherin(changathiyaa) vannit kazhikkan
kaathirikkumbo...dha varunnu adutha iditheee
sherin vannu..
alla avalalla idithee...
avalod TL chodichatre ningale aa theatreil teere pretheekshichillannu.
Aval entannu chodichappo pulli parayuvaaa "Gundu padam matrame 
sadarana aa theartril vararullu atre"
santhosham,samadanam...
Njangal ellarum oru pole potti chirichu!!!
Orikkalum marakkatha oru divasom.I'll say nalla divasom still..
It was an awesome day...... :)

Friday 3 August 2012

Spreading the smile


                     
Her mother was lying beside her,motionless,dead..She was raped
to death.It was not the first time that her mother was getting
raped.Being born and brought up in the streets,it was common.

She would be hardly 2 years old I guess.
She wasn't crying.
She knew that crying never worked,even when she was hungry.
Not with her mother,who happened to be her only family.She
had bitter memories whenever she cried too much and the scars
are still there.

Now,she was amused by the sudden attention she was getting.She
never had these many pair of eyes on her ever before.She could
see few women shedding tears.She wasn't bothered of the fact that
she was sitting in a pool of her mother's blood.

Nobody moved closer to her.She was tired.Weak.May be she hadn't
taken food for a while.May be all she need was a glass of water.
But no,not yet.It was time for the world to sympathize.

I could see that she was getting sick of the cameras.But still,
She wasn't crying.
The media wanted her to cry.They wanted the most heart-breaking
story.The front page photo of the little girl crying miserably
near the dead body of her mother who was raped by seven men.The
housewives should weep like a child with this one picture.And
then, after half an hour,they will move on with their routine life.
The TRP is going to be on the higher side today!

She wasn't crying.
She had no idea that fifteen minutes of the Prime time News will
be featured on her.Its something that people will die for these
days!Eminent personalities will analyse this situation,blame it
on the current society,talk about where India stand now,compare
with foreign nations,mix politics with it...but no,she won't get
that glass of water.

These thoughts were crossing my mind and then, our eyes met.....
Her beautiful little green eyes gazing at me.Her innocence against
my selfishness,her curiosity against my helplessness,the starry-eyed
versus the clear-eyed.

And ....She was smiling.Why on earth..,I had no clue.Yet she was
smiling.I never knew a smile could be this beautiful.I realised
that I was smiling back.Her smile is infectious !!

I was right.She was the topic of discussion with a life span
of fifteen minutes.Someone else was robbed and killed the very
next day and there was no column left for a motherless girl who
doesn't even cry..

Well,those little green eyes ..They are still as beautiful as they
were. She is there ,somewhere in the northern part of Kerala still
spreading her infectious smile.....

Wednesday 1 August 2012

Fish out of water!-Last part

The meeting was scheduled at 2 pm. Got postponed to 5pm, actually happened at 6 :30 pm.They accused me of cheating. I explained what happened.But it was of no use.When they were about to make a decision, someone passed by the cabin.The face,I remembered was our invigilator's.Ran out of the cabin and told her the situation.When I think about it now, i feel it was quite dramatic. She remembered me. She cleared everything with the HR. I never got an apology for the insult.
Coming out of the cabin,I had only one thought.I am leaving the place as early as possible.Gotta catch the next bus home.I was shivering out of anger.I felt so bad for the people who were expelled.I now know what they had gone through.They have questioned our self-respect.
I came storming into my class and broke into tears.The geek sitting next to me was lost in the assignments and came up to me with doubts. I made him remember his family members including his great great grandfathers!!
Then some of my friends came and gave me the strength to move on.If I left my job now,all this would be for nothing. They told me not to go home just like that after reaching this far and all the blah blah blah stuff. "Ok fine,am not gonna quit.But tell this geek to stop annoying me"
You know what,I totally agree that what doesn't kill you makes you strong.
Training completed successfully!!..Now it was the long wait for the postings.My mom made it clear that I must get posted in Kerala (like I own the company!).
The time for the announcement came. It was to be updated on the training portal. Tension at its peak.I believe I was the first person to see that, Trivandrum it is...Felt nothing. Seriously.People were jumping, hugging, cursing,..I felt nothing. When I think about all these now,it appears silly.Even it sounds childish.But these were do or die situations then...
But now here I am wondering why I took it all so seriously!!..I realised that these are not the things we need to bother about.So,nowadays,the only thing that bothers me are "Whether I ll get the Spicy Chicken special today before its finished" or whether there ll be a long queue for the 'kattanchaaya' (tea)"....
(Meen avial enthayo entho)!..
Fish is back,not in the water,lets say an aquarium..Fish hasn't found its
niche yet....
NB:-The expelled people are doing better than any of us.Ultimately, I ,believe honesty and sincerity wins.What matters is how selfless we are.Manipulators may succeed initially.But it ll pay off at some point. The movie freak is the winner of best short film..the future director.These HR people may be one day waiting
in queue to watch his movie.Other people too are pursuing higher studies...
They might end up being the CEO of the company...
Waiting for that day...!

Tuesday 31 July 2012

Fish Out of Water....

The very same day, exactly one year ago ,ie on July 31st , I was at Mysore campus.It was
just awesome.It's something that leaves you awestruck.The luxurious rooms, the fabulous
food (well.. initially), the unbelievable infrastructure was startlingly impressive. And thus
began,the most eventful trial of my life.

It was a huge and diverse batch of more 1000 trainees from different parts of India.
Different culture, attitudes,dressing styles. I saw micro-skirts and ultra shorts for the
first time! First week,we had induction and the Do's and Don'ts which was kinda scary.

Life was heavenly,the first week.I realised that weekend was the best thing about the
campus.We get to watch movies at our own multiplex.We just need to be in queue for
about 2-3 hours!!. Queues were the integral part of life there.Then, began the ordeal.
The training started. The very first day, I realised its no cake walk. I, coming from
electronics background, struggled like hell. Tasted utter failure for the first time in life
and later on, it became a habit. Flunking had become the part and parcel of my life!!

The best hideout became my room.My single room,My TV,My bed.That became my
world.Slowly started realising that couple of friends from college weren't there for me.
It's in such situations that you realise who your real friends are!!And that's how I got
two best friends of my life!! And sorry,I am not talking of boyfriends here!!.
We flunked together,went roaming around at night inside the campus , saw some
unforgettable scenes (ahem ahem!!) and just because of that went again and again
:-P..Oooh la la!! ;)

Then there came the extended training.Another milestone!.I had a friend who was so
passionate of film-making. Always dreamt of being a director.A simple,honest guy.
We were facing the most critical exam that decides whether we are IN or OUT of the
 company.My system got shut down at the very beginning. I was so pissed off. Finally,
after trying many systems, gave my exam.The result was fine for me..I was safe,for a
change!.But fewof my friends,including the movie freak, were caught for copying.
Their codes were similar. This person was sitting next to me and all he did was,code
code and code.I was shocked.After few days,came to know that he was expelled...

A few days later,I got a mail to meet up with HR as I had used many systems to give
my exam.Case of Multiple log in. It's like,I cheated. I don't know the exam invigilator
on that day who made me shift from my 'dabba' system to another and to another...
It was time to meet the HR...

Sunday 29 July 2012

Fish Out Of Water!


It  was  around  12  am when I got my first offer letter.Six months training at Mysore.
I was totally bewildered. I didn't expect it this soon..Couldn't sleep that night.
What would it be like ???? Corporate life .. and me??What can an instrumentation 
Engineer do in an IT Company..??Its high time I answer that question..Well, convincing
my parents to let me accept the job was one thing...but now i gotta convince myself.
Typical mallu girl that I am...It was harder convincing the relatives than my parents..


The preparations began..The best part was the shopping.. Lets face it.Am a girl..
born shopaholic ..Can't help it.I had a weird feeling that I am gonna be the "behenji" 
with those salwars,coconut oil(didn't I mention "mallu"?..goes with it!)for my hair , pickles(touchings..!!),chutney powder(for god's sake Mom, No...)....The list is too big..
I called up few of my  friends.They are taking formal dresses..pants,shirts (Parishkaarikal)..
I got those too..(Acha...pant pant !:-P).We should't be behind anyone ryt?! My shopping
 was sooooo small that I end up having four heavy bags!


As the date was getting closer,I realised that I am getting anxious about it..Relatives,
no comments there, came home to bid goodbye (good riddance!).I got a lot of
 money  from them which later I wish I hadn't..! Said goodbye to God's own country.
I,then had no idea that, this, was gonna be the most unforgettable experience of 
my life..the experience that made me laugh like mad,cry like anything.......
...To be continued.....

Saturday 28 July 2012

For the Abnormally Normal People!!


I am a multitalented person...Well... says me!!!!!.
I have used almost all the talents in me to such an extent that now,
I am exhausted with my talents.So I quit them.Rather clearly, circumstances made me
ignore my talents. The disease began ..i mean the talents first popped up when I was ten
 years old.Correct time for exploring talents ..Well...I didn't just explore,I jumped into depths
of it.Firstly, my talent was in poetry.One would be amused to see a ten year old little rascal sitting quietly in the garden,looking intensely into a rose
and writing lines and lines of poem(classic poem!).Incredible !Yeah! That was only
 a beginning ..Then I didn't leave anything.I wrote about anything and everything that 
came by my way ,like..my parents,my commanding elder brother,my worries about the 
weather,how my brother's friends always made me pick the cricket ball from bushes
(and never let me play),our Susan Teacher..and what not!!.
It was hard for my mom and for everyone else because i began seeing poetry
 everywhere,the food I eat,the homework I do and I became so pensieve.Finally,tired
of my talents perhaps,my dad sent two of my wonderful works
to 'THE HINDU' and here I sat,pouring over each Young World Edition.
But I was disappointed.  After waiting for 1 month,it came.What? There was a column in 
Young World in which it was written that 'No more poems will be accepted and only
 drawings are invited'. That's it......You know what..True talent never receives respect.
But they enabled me to find my real inborn talent. Yes!!! I found it finally!!!..Drawing!..
Again to the garden,another rose,same parents,same elder brother(can't help it),
and everything else became fine pieces of art.I was overwhelmed by my own talent.
What a  genius am I!! .But the problem was that whatever i drew,seemed modern art
to others.I was confused. But who  cares!..Another pair of drawings were sent  to
'THE HINDU'.But, the art gallery of Young World disappeared for the next 2 weeks.
As I told,true talent never gets acceptance, But they cant defeat me, coz I have found
 my deepest talent,music!!Now one could see a twelve year old girl yelling at the top of
her voice whenever a gap came between talks.So,I don't know why,but everyone kept 
talking on and on without giving me gaps.Well,there was still lot of time for practise.
The power cuts at that time were sponsored by my songs.I believed that my music added 
to the peace and harmony of our home.But my parents thought otherwise and brought
 home an inverter.
Seeing my untapped talent,my dad sent me to a music teacher.He was not good enough
 for me ,but still I adjusted. He glared and frowned whenever I sang.
But gradually I realised that he was jealous of my talent. 
There was always some misunderstandings between us because
he couldn't come to my pitch and I couldn't go to his.Well,he was not adaptable.
But,I sang with all my heart..
Then the school music competition came.I boasted my talents and  when the teacher
called my name ,I was super confident. But when I was singing on stage,I saw the teachers 
and students laughing at me.And they too,laughed with all their heart,..But I was broken..
so hurt....and now one could see a 13 year old girl running,with tears in her eyes from
the competition hall like wind....WHAT???HANG ON...LIKE WIND??? Yeah!!!
I could run fast!!Why...I should have realised this ages ago..
Here I go..My field is sports!..
Now ,one could not see a thirteen year old girl coming down the staircase because she 
would either be jumping or running..! Yeah.. I no longer walked.There were no more
roses in the garden because of my long jump practise and no more smiles on my mom's face..
I watched wrestling shows but I missed out on the 'DON'T TRY THIS AT HOME' message and it happened.Two of my wrist bones broken and a plastered hand for 3 months! 
Great! I realised that 'DON'T TRY THIS AT HOME' was an important message that I 
missed and that...sports was,after all,not my cup of tea.
Then after a few talentless and absolutely peaceful days, I saw it.I saw Madhuri Dixi
dancing and realised that I could do what she was doing and that dance was my real

passion.A 14 year old girl,participating in dance  competitions,,..But that wasn't a big
 failure!!! But again my hand was a flop..Another 2 months of plastered hand..Goodbye ..
 to dance..!!
There were no more talents to be explored during my 11th and 12th classes.But there
was something that I never noticed during my 'Talent Hunt'. I was always surrounded 
by awesome friends and that was not my talent .That was a gift from GOD ALMIGHTY.
I remained silent and enjoyed my talent(gift).There are more roses in the garden now..,
a peaceful family,unbroken hands(Thank God).But I'm so damn optimistic and I still 
believe that I m a multitalented person !!;)